I learned this morning that one of the angels I have been blessed with has gone to be at the hand of Our Father. When I was watching Joel Osteen this morning before church she came to my mind strongly, and I recalled a recent conversation we had about a mutual loved one. That person called me with the news minutes later that Ms. Tammy had passed during the night.
My day started full of sorrow, not because I hurt for Tammy, but because we lost such a wonderful example of God’s love here on earth. I know that she’s looking down on me and being an angel over me, in a much better place than we are. She was a very holy woman and I was blessed to have her with me for the few minutes in this life that we knew each other. We spoke boldly about our blessings and how Satan works to try to dissuade us through many forms, even our loved ones.
My message received at church today was that I have to ask for forgiveness and to extend forgiveness myself. We are not guaranteed a tomorrow. We need to verbalize to people how we feel, apologize for any wrong-doings, and forgive the transgressions against us by others, family, friends, whoever. It’s not our place to judge anyone. It is our place to forgive so that when it is our time to go home, we can enter the Kingdom of Heaven without regret or sin tainting our souls.
When we got home this afternoon I turned to the book, “God’s Promises For Your Every Need” that our Pastor gifted to us. We’ve been studying it each day, and I’ve found that it’s given both my husband and myself great comfort in several personal situations. Today I was seeking answers about what to do when you feel deserted by a loved one. This was the message I received:
Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the LORD your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.
I was asked by God to forgive today. I have forgiven. I asked for forgiveness myself because that’s what God asked me to do. I know that regardless of what happens next I did exactly what I was asked to do and that God will not forsake me. I know that as long as I always do as Jesus would do, I cannot go wrong. We’re not always going to agree with everyone, but we can agree to disagree, forgive and move on. Don’t harbor ill feelings; it only hurts you and God will lift your heart right when you need him to. He did it again for me today.
I will miss my friend, Ms. Tammy. Because of her I have been blessed even more in the eyes of God. I am forever grateful for her kindness and for her words that encouraged me to keep on my walk of faith, to not be deterred by those who will try to tear me down to fulfill their own selfish desires.
For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.
Dear Heavenly Father, I ask that you forgive me of my sinful thoughts and actions. I ask that you welcome Ms. Tammy into your Kingdom with open arms and that you use her memory as an example for all of us to follow. I ask that you keep joy in the hearts of the people who seek ill will towards me and my family. Please forgive me, forgive them, and let us all live in peace and harmony during this Christmas season. In Jesus’ name, I praise and thank You, Amen!
I make no secrets of the struggles I’ve had in my 38 years. I speak frankly to those who will hear it. I have had more health problems than most 80 year olds endure, but to look at me you’d never know it. Stress is my major contributor. I have an ileostomy (colostomy, but to a more severe degree) due to a battle with Ulcerative Colitis, and I’ve had it for going on 14 years now. (I won’t mention my other surgeries yet, it will come in time as it applies to my message to you)
Recently I’ve had a change in employment, our finances have been strained to say the very least, we’ve been plagued by false accusations of all kinds, we’ve been robbed of our possessions… and now my body is taking the inevitable toll in the wrong direction.
In my despair my faith has been strengthened. It would be very easy for me to turn around and say, “God, why have your turned your back on me? Haven’t I turned my life around for you?” But the truth is that God has provided a way to propel both myself and my husband to a greater destiny. Through all of this adversity I have found blessing beyond belief. Our families have united where we were once broken. My father has been saved by open heart surgery. My employer is understanding of my health issues and has given me time to recuperate. My husband has been provided with work, just enough to keep a roof over our heads and food in the pantry. Our garden is growing and we’re able to share with others. My prayers are being answered.
Once again, I’m living proof that God works through me and in all of us. For the first time I was able to inspire people around me to believe that better things are coming. I’ve always said, and sternly to my friends, “First you say it, then it happens.” Most of the time it was a warning… typically we would mention someone that we hadn’t seen in awhile and they would call within a day. That’s just a minor example. I’ve learned that we have to be careful with our words, both in written and spoken form. Our words have power. They can give us grace or condemn us to a life of misery.
My body is worn, but my Spirit is strong! I am living proof that you can use your words to inspire and that in turn you will be blessed. My body is tired, but I speak that I’m getting better each day. This infection WILL NOT get the best of me. I WILL heal and be stronger in my faith because of it. I AM a child of God and one of my many purposes in life is to touch you and bless you… that’s why you’re reading this right now. Remember, there are no coincidences, there’s only the road the God has paved for us. Trust in Him and give your worries to Him. It’s human nature to worry, to stress… but my lesson for today is that although my body might not feel like it, my soul knows that God has his hand on me and I am blessed for sharing my experiences with you.
I AM Blessed. You are blessed. Believe it and you’ll see major changes in your life in ways you never knew possible. That’s a promise.